I found out today that a previously very close friend of mine have locked down her twitter account and unfriended me in Facebook. There were previously misunderstandings but I thought we passed them because she told me that she forgave me and we were good. She even referred to me as her best friend. I guess it's all lip service. It is still hard for me to understand when people just end relationships like this so abruptly, without any explanation.
True friends are suppose to love/accept/forgive you no matter what and try work things out with you. I guess my definition of what a true friend is doesn't apply to other people's definitions and I need to realize that.
My life is full of mistakes, and I know that. But I welcome those mistakes so that I can learn from them and grow from them. I never ever do anything knowingly hurtful on purpose, ever. It's just not who I am. If you are a true friend to someone, you will do what it takes to be a true friend, even if it means telling them how they fucked up and hurt you so that they can realize and understand. Then you both can work pass this. I guess my friendship really is worth nothing to some people and it really saddens me.
Delicate Balance was the chosen one by the Juror! And the prize winner is LUCY!!! Yay!
thank you guys for all of your support & comments :)
(Excuse the formatting; Vox is being lame).
November 2
It's starting to look like fall here! I love all of the leaves everywhere.
November 3
ABC7 is right across the street from the famous Chicago Theatre marquee. It looks cool at night.
November 4 & 5
I took the same picture apparently leaving ABC7 last week, but the blue lights on State Street and in front of Macy's look nice, even if it's too early for Christmas.
November 6
Saw this quote in Rolling Stone, and I cut it out and posted right in the middle of my bulletin board.
November 7
Cammi, Ally and me at Gamekeepers watching the LSU-Alabama game. This is probably before that botched interception call.
November 8
Cammi and Taylor at Fat Cat in Uptown. I highly recommend the Uptown Lemonade and Pumpkin
November 9
well, not exactly 24 hours but tomorrow is the drawing so critique me while there's still time :o) ! (read post below)
Those of you who already have, thank you for your insight, your compliments and your suggestions as well as taking the time to view my work. It's something personal, yet needs to be shared.
You all kick ass!!
Just realized that I have never sent a post to my neighbors prior to this.I did today in hope for your feedback, thoughts, critiques, ideas, etc.
Today is the submission for the Winter Juried Art Exhibition. Each artist can submit up to three works in any medium. I selected and submitted these three photos (8X10 matted & framed) - with the advice/counsel/assistance of a couple of important people.
Delicate Balance:
Part-Time:
Broken Home:
Although they are now in the hands of the juror..I want to know what you all think. I'm not fishing for compliments here...that's not what it's about. I am intrigued by people's perceptions. This came up in conversation last night while trying to choose which ones to enter...
So...if you'd be so inclined tell me your thoughts. They by no means have to be 'good' and no I won't hold it against you or stop reading your posts. :) Everyone interprets art differently and I understand and respect that. In order to improve my work, I want to know what other's see when they look at it.
some questions to think about...
which one do you favor, if any? why?
what do these images evoke?
is there one or more that you wouldn't have submitted? which and why?
WHAT'S IN IT FOR YOU? A prize of course. All you awesome neighbors who leave feedback will be entered into a little drawing to win an 8x10 copy of one of the above photos (the winner chooses the photo they want). Drawing will take place on Tuesday.
=)
from the mouth of my therapist:
"what we make something mean determines how we feel about it"
I hold onto this when I begin to react to something too quickly or too emotionally. It's difficult to step back and re-examine situations that you feel strongly about before the knee jerk reactions set in...but it's much more beneficial and wastes less energy if one can do so. I'm working on it.
In other terribly sad news, I got a phone call last night from one of Tay's friend's parents - letting me know that her son, Tay's good friend, had passed away over the weekend. He was only 17. He had chronic lung disease and other medical issues and apparently lapsed into a coma. I had to break the news to Tay and she was in complete shock. She just sat there staring off. She said she had just spoke with him last week and things were ok. Gotta call her school counselor this morning to see if she can see her.
It was too soon for him to go. He was such a sweet, sweet spirit.
Ok. Loathes first:
I'm alone in my bed. (No cuddles for me.)
It's cold. And dark.
All the children in my life have Swine flu.
Some customers are just no fun at all.
Eric Cantor. He looks like a smug asshole. Maybe he isn't always that way, but every time they stick him on a TV screen, I want to spit on him. (That's how I really feel.)
Loves to end with:
It's fall and I will adjust to the cold and dark thing.
The shed's almost done, so I'll be painting soon. (This will probably become a loathe in a little bit, haha.)
I got some of my Christmas presents in the mail (I might have mentioned this already) and they are SUUUUPER cute. (Any etsy fans? Check out Down & Out Chic.)
I'm getting ready to curl up with Time Traveler's Wife. (I was going to start a few minutes ago...)
Things to look forward to:
Creating a packaging technique for the cute Christmas gifts I've received, since they all came in one box. (Time to get festive and creative... a bit early, I know.)
The weekend. I have off again on Saturday and I think I'm going to block off my morning for breakfast. I want baked oatmeal because it's delicious.
lovin'
-the amazing weather we've had over the past several days...clear skies, cool, sunny..perfect.
-we're about to go see a performance of Macbeth that Love has worked very hard on with his students
-T has someone special in her life which makes her less moody and much sweeter. I'll take it.
-the droplets of strength that come when I least expect
-Leenda's suggestion of taking Cymbalta at night...thank you, no more nausea!
-the deaf dalmation mix that is up for adoption...I would love to give it a home but we have no room
-being non-depressed for the past 24 hours now. yay. small portions...but good.
loathe's
-waking every morning at 2am or so and having trouble getting to sleep again...must be the meds somehow. Need a tranquilizer.
-a client no-showing
-loud, disruptive neighbors
-the sound of my alarm - must get something else, it literally hurts my ears...it's not loud it's just extremely annoying
-the $$$$ these appointments and meds are costing!
-a lump of scar tissue under my C-section scar that is becoming extremely painful at various times throughout the day
(seeing a Dr. Monday for this=more $)
I randomly decided to start my photo blog again, and this time I'm determined to do every single day for an entire year.
Day 1: October 30
Me and Brad at his Halloween party.
Day 2: October 31
Me dressed as Jem. Happy Halloween!
Day 3: November 1
I got this card in the mail Saturday, how cute! And of course I told her yes.
