Gallows

I have partaken of various substances this evening.
I am feeling quite high and quite low at the moment.
To compensate, I am singing along, voice at it's loudest, to Say Anything.
I cannot wait to be out West.
I cannot wait to be out East.

I really, really want to hug K-mart right now.
I was telling someone tonight how she was one of most wonderful people, and women, I knew.
Oh, her and the puppies and the ponies.

I need more friends like that.

At the street party this evening I was surrounded by people I knew and have known.
It was nice.
I'm still hung up on her, though.
Think I may always be.
How do you really turn that off for the person that showed you how to love again?
Regardless, I do not doubt she and I have a friendship that will last our lifetimes.

I often lament the fact I do not have direction for myself.
I curse that I have not found my niche yet.
I cannot appreciate the freedom I have at this time.
I know I will look back on these moments fondly. Someday.
Someday.

For now I sit and work and wait.
I shall see what I see.
I will record these moments.
I will share my life.
I will live.